All I want right now...

... is to snuggle up with him, hold hands, cuddle, kiss him, hug him...

Sleeping

Today I woke up early (9 am) because there's a lot for me to do today. When I woke up I saw his cute face. (I think we mentioned before that we sometimes do sleepovers by video calls?) Anyway, it made me proud because I know that I have the cutest and the best boyfriend in the whole world.

(I think I'm gonna set my alarm this early every time we do a sleepover hahah)

19th of July 2013

The date in the headline will from now on be an important date for us. This is the date when we decided to call ourselves a couple. I didn't think something would feel different just because we call ourselves a couple... I mean ever since we knew we love each other we behaved like if we actually were a couple. But actually things did change. Things changed a lot. The butterflies i had before started to move even more, I'm happier than I was before... There are small things that changed to the better, and now I finally understand somehow when people say that the small things matter the most. It makes sense somehow.

Even though we call ourselves a couple we didn't make it official yet. Somehow it feels better to meet before telling our families and friends that we're a couple. It's easier to explain everything then and less people will judge us. I know it's easy to say "stay strong and support what you believe in" but it's not an easy thing to do. 

HER

It's getting closer and closer

So the fight he posted about last time was a real nightmare. I never want to go through that again. Ever. On the other hand this dispute only made our relation stronger, so I guess it brought some good things too... Which we should be thankful for.

Anyway, enough about the sad parts now. The past is the past and from now on it can only get better. And I'm pretty sure it will!

After all there's one thing I'm sure about: There's nothing we can't get through.

HER

Some insperation

Dreams

Last night I had one of those dreams again. Everything was perfect. We were cuddling in a bed, he wore no shirt and i could feel the smell of his skin. He was hugging me tight and I woke up happy. I'd give anything to make it reality. 

"HER"

What more could I ask for?

I have everything I ever want in life. I have a great family, great friends and i have him. What more could I ask for?
It's easy to forget about the things you already have and to be thankful about them. Like for me and him... It's easy to think negative about this whole thing, about the distance, about if it will work and if it will last... But when these thoughts appears in your mind you've got to shape up and clear your mind. It's easy to think negative, but actually (believe it or not) it's easier to see everything from the bright side. Especially when you're two. We both have the same aims and goals in life and because of this it's easier to motivate each other and so on. I have everything I ever want in life, and I know that I will reach my goals some time, so what more could I ask for?

Dreams

This is not the first time I dream about him, but tonight it was something special. I dreamed about that I was sitting in the kitchen one evening. When I looked out of the window i saw him outside and I ran through the hall to the door, opened it and threw myself into his arms.

The thing that makes this dream so special is that the hug he gave me was the best hug someone has ever given me. It was so magical somehow. I would kill to make that moment come true.

"HER"

Show me that good things comes to those who wait.

This morning was one of those mornings you just love. I woke up "beside" him. Seeing his face as the first thing I see in the morning always makes me happy. I couldn't wish for more. 

We do these "sleepovers" over Skype every now and then, and I really think they help us a lot. It makes everything easier. It makes you calm and it's cozy. 

I can't wait until I actually lie there beside him in the mornings and get to give him real morning-kisses.

"HER"

I need you so much closer

To "him": 

It's weird how you can miss somebody you haven´t even met. But I actually miss you today, I only had the time to say "hello" before I had to go and it was horribly painful to leave. I feel bad for paying you like none attention at all these days.  Today I could really need a hug from you, and only you. No one else. I need you so much closer. 

"Together forever, never apart, maybe in distance but never in heart."

Talking

Today I've barely talked to "him" at all... I was busy with school and after that i met some of my friends. I was gone all day from 7 a.m. until 11p.m. Of course I miss him all day long, but sometimes it's easy to forget to spend time with your friends too.  I think this is something we both know and maybe that's why we can easily accept that one day we're talking like all day but the next day we barely even say "hi"...

Anyways, now I'm home and we're finally talking. Or "he" doesn't talk right now... He's lying in his bed making funny faces to me over skype. 

Now we'll probably talk a little more before it´s time to go to bed. 

"HER" 

Okay so now that we've made our blog look the way we wanted it to, we can finally start blogging.

I will tell you a little more about us:
Meeting over the internet isn't always as easy as it sounds. It's way easier to, for example, lie about something over the internet than if you meet a person in real life.  We have had a lot of problems in our friendship that almost caused the end of it a several times. It kinda became a "standard-thing" in this friendship, and after the 700th time you knew the other person wouldn't leave so you stopped caring about it. And maybe that is a reason why we became so close friends and then later fell in love? We know we fit together, we know that somehow it's meant to be, we know that we cant live without each other.

We are still "just" friends, even though we behave like we´re a couple already haha, but we both wanna wait until we meet for real. It's not that we're insecure... We just think it would be wrong to become a couple without even have met.

I don´t really have the energy to write more right now, it´s late and I'm super tired. Good night.

"HER"